There are a lot of changes that I am trying to make in my life. I feel that I have done what was needed to put some things from my past to rest. I do not always believe in closure, besides, things never end. You may want this but I realize that you can’t just close something. Even if you have dealt with it yourself and moved on doesn’t make it magically go away. Also, everything effects everything else. You can not end this. By trying to put anything to an end you simply effect this more and cause more results. You can only accept it for what it is and try to live with it how it is. These are ideas that I have accepted and thought a lot about.
The event, and result, is not important. The important thing is that I have moved forward to a place that I needed to be at a long time ago. What will bring me to my next step is not something I have the power to do myself. I, nor no one else, can force the actions of others in an honest way. So I wait. I can only hope that this particular event will fall into place in my life in a positive and enlightening way. I can’t say what will happen, and I will do nothing to push it one way or another. I just know that I am on a path now that I am feeling good about. I am finding a balance in my life in many ways and I am finding peace with myself. I know that I may mess things up more or make things better. Then again so could anyone else. Like I said no one can control these outcomes.
I just felt like sharing even if I am unwilling to share too many details. I know that being vague can be annoying, but I can’t change what I need to do. Some of the actions I have taken are very personal and I don’t even know the results of them. The event is not, but I am feeling like I wish it had been. I can’t change the past but hope to make a better future.
I wish peace and happiness to you all and hope that we can learn from each other and make each others lives better from the thoughts and emotions that we share.