I am tired of second guessing myself. I did something, rather I didn’t do something that I wanted to do, last night that I found to be quite hard for me to do, or not do. I spent about two hours thinking about doing it though. I made up my mind hours before that not to do it, but still thought for a long time about how I wanted to do it despite of my decision not to do it.
Although this was one of those things that takes a lot of thought. It was something I wanted to do and have done for quite a long time, but I knew that I shouldn’t do now. I don’t know if it would have been a real bad thing to do, in fact I don’t think it would have even been taken as wrong by those involved on the other end. I just don’t think it was appropriate at this time. Maybe one day I will be able to do what I want once more, but for now there are things that I need to stop myself on for other peoples ideas of appropriateness.
One should do what one feels, but at the same time consider how it might affect others.